Ching

From CCP:

“

There are some things you say, some you don’t.

Some you keep so deep inside you, they fall beyond your shadow.

Some you keep right under your skin, hoping someone will notice.

I’ve been leading a tiring life ever since schl started.

But what fatigue does, is it lets you see your priorities more clearly.

& I’ve decided on mine. I’ve made efforts to brush myself up.

So far they’ve paid off, I feel like I’m an improved student.

But it comes @ a price. Maybe I’ve bit off more than I can chew.

If I could break myself into separate identities & moods & bodies,

If I could dedicate one of myself to each & every person in my life,

If I could be so fucking carefree/energetic/happy all the time,

If I could have more time to even give myself a decent social life,

If I could be what you remember best of me through all this stress,

Fucking believe me when I say this: I would. I would.

But I can’t.

Fatigue, really makes you rethink everyth you have on your plate.

What you can or can’t handle. What you need or can live without.

Sometimes, I just wish I could reverse some things.

Leave all your love & your loving behind

You can’t carry it with you if you want to survive

“

So true so true.